Monday, February 25, 2013

Plodding along...

Blogging has not been at the top of my priority list lately. I can't say I'm any busier than usual...just lack of motivation, I guess. I've had plenty to say...probably better that most of it hasn't been written down to be held against me at a later date. Teenagerdom is is not easy to navigate for the teen or the parents. I seem to be the recipient of much of her angst. As you know, I'm not so great at letting it roll off my shoulders. The hardest part is that she wants to be an adult SO bad...but not really. And I want to let her be an adult but don't know how to back off on the mothering. {sigh} first world problems I know.

My meditation class had been going well! It's interesting. Tomorrow is my 4th class (out of 6). It's Insight Meditation & basically you sit in a "comfortable" position for 20 minutes and just breathe. When a thought pops into your head (and trust me, you can't keep them out, its called monkey brain) you ignore it & go back to concentrating on your breath. Sometimes the 20 minutes flies by...other times it feels like an eternity. I do feel some of the effects though. I feel calmer, generally. I've been listening to an audio book & find I'm actually paying attention. Thats new. Insight Meditation teaches you to live in the moment. Tonight I listened to a podcast on my Stitcher app that was Metta (its about love & forgiveness). I liked the podcast much more than just sitting quietly. I know the sitting quietly is important, but listening to the prompts made time fly...and it made me feel like I was getting it right. Last week my teachers told us about a two day Vippasana meditation retreat coming up in Flagstaff. I'm seriously considering it (its free). I'm that intrigued by it...

The other thing I've been doing is taking a 28 day self photography class, Be Your Own Beloved. I find it to be so inspiring to see the types of photos the other 120 people are they view themselves...their creativity. I am seriously loving it! Even loving it as I do, I find some prompts to be very difficult & I put them off. I'm either really caught up or really behind. Today I'm really behind. And I'm ok with that.

Here's a photo from my walk tonight with Maggie & Ori. I went with the intention of taking photos for my class...ended up playing instead:


  1. hello! Thanks for pointing me in the direction of the stitcher app... I have some favorite Buddhist/ meditation related podcasts that you may enjoy: Against the Stream (Noah Levine) and Tara Brach. Both have a mix of talks and guided meditations. Pema Chodron is one of my favorite teachers, too- she has CDs that include meditations.
    I just started a 101 Faces class on-line and I am already behind :)