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Saturday, April 2, 2011

Fizz & Cupcakes

Thursday night I got to hang out with my friend Kim from Fizz Bath Shop.  We were just sipping wine, eating cheese & enjoying the beautiful night at Cuvee 928.  Talking about life, our kids, being business owners (even though I'm a former owner), and the directions of our lives.  Kim has big, big plans for Fizz & I'm so excited for her!  My life, however, has had no direction.  Yeah, I have a job.  And yeah, I know my husband is going to retire in 15 months (holy crap!), but really, what am I going to do with this life?  I miss being creative...I cannot tell you how much I actually miss that!  But there's so much more to me than scrapbooking.  I love all sorts of creative things!  We talked about having a plan...where you're at today is not necessarily the path you are on forever.  Things can change if you're willing.  Opening your mind to possibilities.  It was all rather deep...and yeah, I cried.  What a baby I am.  It's hard kinda floundering along wondering what there is in this world for you...

I really took Kim's words to heart.  They've been with me & on my mind for days now.  So much so that I even have a better attitude towards life.  Towards everything.  Quite frankly it's profound.  And I think that her words, coupled with the words from my closest friends & family, are finally sinking in.  I'm starting to see that I don't suck.  That a couple of rotten people who talk shit about me are not me. They don't even know me.  Not the real me.  And I don't want to know them, because, they're mean.  And for some stupid reason, it makes them happy to make people feel bad about themselves.  No more.

Anyway, today I decided to head on down to our public library to check out a book on cd (believe it or not, I can listen to whatever I want when I do my data entry job...I looked for something profound, but alas our library is not so advanced.  I settled with Love the One Your With by Emily Giffin...it's fiction).  While I was there I decided to read the magazines that I used to subscribe to and/or buy but no longer do so.  The chick on the front of Entrepreneur Magazine made me pick up the issue:
First of all, her haircut rocks!  I'm going for that look after this lovely grow-out phase I'm in (who knows if I'll make it, but hey, now I have a goal).  Her article is freaking amazing!   This chick owns a cupcake shop that is hip & instead of being all cute & cuddly it's cool!  Her shops specialty is pairing cupcakes with wine & imported beer.  Ok, now I love her!  Then I read her blog and, well, damn she's cool & I really love her! 

While I am not in any position to be an entrepreneur anytime soon, I have a goal, and that my friends is all I needed!  I may not ever be a cupcake shop owner, but you know what?  I'm going to start making cupcakes & seeing if I'm any good at it.  And if I suck, I'll pick something else.  I'll take advantage of that sweet discount I get at the university & take a couple of classes.  Photography, for one.  And who knows what else.  

I am not just going to sit around & wait for life to happen to me.  There are things I want to do, places I want to go.  I am not going to allow life to beat me down anymore.  Everything is a means to an end.  Living with intention...purpose.  Having faith in myself.  I know 100% with all my heart that selling the store was the right thing to do.  And now that I'm over myself, it's time to get down to business.

7 comments:

  1. WOW. Powerful post, Kirsten. That Kim is just so darn wise, she is.

    I love that you are all about pursuing your passion, even if you haven't quite gotten past the fuzzy idea of "be creative" no matter what anyone else says.

    And Flagstaff NEEDS a good cupcake shop.

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  2. I love this post - so many words that hit so close to home. It is hard when you get off your path, but without that, there would be no adventure. And don't forget about the butterflies. :-)

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  3. I totally relate to this post. You are not alone... :) You are so special, and you inspire me in so many ways! I love you!♥♥♥

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  4. *HIGH FIVES!!!!!!* also... you should listen to Taylor Swift's song "mean"... It's a cute song I think you could relate to.. lol. :)

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  5. Finally! You go woman!!!
    Love you!
    Mom

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  6. I love this. And you. You are amazing.

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  7. I can relate. It is hard to feel like you're off your path when you're not even entirely sure what that path looks like.

    Love love love cupcake shops. There are at least two here in Portland and it is a good thing I don't live too near either. Come to think of it, last year (or the year before), I had the brilliant idea of making lots and lots of cupcakes and becoming a cupcake maker extraordinaire. Guess how many I made. LOL.

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